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Wednesday, March 28, 2007

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i tink im sinking into depression... im so terribly upset over i duno wad.. there could be 101 reasons but i cant seem to find the right one =(

i havent enjoyed myself ever since school started. all that rush is driving me up the walls. not a day without any work to worry about. nvm if the results are up to my expectations. but no. i tink everything's screwed up compared to the effort i put in. n most of it are caused by careless mistakes. which is prolly coz i havent slept more than 4hrs a day for this entire freaking sem and have no mood no strength wadsoever to concentrate. projects tests assignments presentations one after another i hardly have time to breathe.

this year's birthday just went past like that. tho it's supposed to be more special, but it seemed worse than any other year's. as well, i duno why. but it just felt like something was missing. having my parents, boifren and the same few jc classmates that always find the time to meet up during each other's burfday.. i should be happy. but it just wasnt good. ok perhaps im just being fussy n whiney n need to miu.

n i screwed up my tests this entire week. like majorly. im so pissed and still couldnt get over the fact that i got an F for my last crystals quiz. this is the first time i actually sat down to study for crystals in hope to get an A. n no! i got a F. like wad the hell! n the worse thing is that i din SU! thinking that after getting 3As for that i can secure at least a B+. oh mannnnn! i wana cryyyyy!!!! sighhhhh.... and i had a careless mistake during my test today. 30marksss! i hope i get some method marks tho. i tink it's the high expectations that i have that is making me so depressed......

to make things worse, i brought my watch to G*ESS to get it punched coz it was too loose. i trusted them and not any other watch shop simply coz i tot since the watch is from there and it's a branded shop, i expect some proper handling about it. simple things like punching a proper hole and nevermind about it being slightly off the line of symmetry... but ohmygawddd they did such a terrible job! the hole wasnt even punched thru and not a clear cut hole! like with those leathery hangovers around it. i looked more like a DIY job with a needle instead of using some proper apparatus. ROAR!!!!!!!! im so pissed with their service. i hope 25hours can fix this prob. i hate G*ESS now! lousy!!!!

and did i mention about this selfish schmate? we've been helping each other in online tests for the past weeks. nevermind if she has lessons at 130 and have to do the test first with everyone's help n disappears for her lesson after that. but at least there was a thankyou. but no! it's just coz we helped her to score As/Bs. but as u noe most of us got Fs for that freaking quiz, she was one of them too. she was like totally off after that and wanted to like just abandon me and go for lesson. if i din whine i bet she wldnt haf stayed. worse still, she was there physically sitting next to me BUT surfing the net checking her mails n laffing at i duno wad... anything but refused to help me. such hypocrites will get their retribution in the real world. thanks for your negative EQ.

and im upset upset upset that i havent been able to spend quality time with my deer. we havent even had a proper meal in school, not to mention going out on weekends. we haven had a decent date since more than a month ago. when we go out now it's coz we need to get something or do sth. not the usual movie eat out dates anymore. school! stop eating up my time with my deer! it's making us so busyyy!!!!!! i dont like!!!!!!

i tink im really upset and to the point that i needed a break so much that i broke down. but i feeling much better now after crying. it really felt great. *phewwwww* ok so much of a complaint post, i shall blog about something happier in the next. ciaos heartless world.

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